saying that i was a fictive of that freak from homestuck was foreshadowing. this page will be dedicated to the true significance of the HEART ASPECT to the best of my ability. the nature of heart is that it loves to be talked about but hates to be explained. but it'll just have to cope for now. know this: i am NOT fucking around or roleplaying or anything when i say this. i dont really care if you walk away from this thinking im crazy or even if you feel the same way but think im stupid for saying it out loud because im just kind of saying whatever here
"hey wait. i thought you said you didnt like homestuck. so what the fuck gives?"
its a bit more complicated than just THAT, but for now we'll say: you know how you have an idea in your head, and you try to make it real, but then you realize you independantly created something that already exists, and you convergently evolved the idea without any outside influence? that's true for a lot of that comic. it was still written by a white dude in 2009 but obviously almost everyone who accidentally participates in convergent evolution SUCKS , just like as a person. this is the nature of the curse. this actually happens WAY more than you think, too. basically these principles aren't inherently tied to HS for me its just something that exists. this also means i'm not having takes on the way it works in the comic i'm talking STRICTLY about what it means HERE and NOW
"what even is HEART in this context?"
if you didn't come pre-packaged with the knowledge of classes/aspects, here's the gist: HEART is basically just THE SELF. heart is IDENTITY, EGO, ESSENCE, and SOUL, but it can also be INTUITION, MOTIVATION, SPECULATION and, most importantly, FORGING ONE'S OWN NARRATIVE. crucially however, heart is NOT love, nor is it lust. (this makes talking about it very difficult because so much heart iconography is associated with those two things.) people who resonate with this aspect (by choice or otherwise) tend to be "self obsessed" in some way, which isn't necessarily a bad thing. mostly it involves attempting to configure and understand the person we're all stuck with for our whole lives.
heart is also associated with emotion, which is weird because i know that i at least tend to flip flop between not having a lot of emotion and being a really emotional person. it doesn't necessarily mean that you have to have a lot of mood swings or emotional outbursts, you can just FEEL stuff way deeper than other people seem to. my secret theory is that a lot of self proclaimed "EMPATHS" are actually experiencing symptoms of heart resonance but maybe i'm being too generous...a lot of heart influenced emotions stay confined to you only, until they're not. (that's when it gets scary.)
"so what does it mean to YOU?"
all of this is pretty big talk coming from the prince of heart, aka the guy who's job description is to destroy (or destroy with) all this bullshit. this is where the more wacky shit comes in though. you see, everything most people have been telling you about the title of "PRINCE OF HEART" is total bullshit. its not an inherently evil job but clearly its REAL easy to fuck up. put as simply as possible: a good prince of heart should actually resemble a blood player. to destroy your concept of self in a positive way is actually to decentralize it and instead refract it onto everyone around you, and see all of their self/selves as they are, and know that they too are an extension of you. (to this effect you can also probably embody more than one aspect at once BUT NO TIME FOR THAT...)
this is one of the things i have to strive for in my existence. it doesn't mean i have to like or even fully empathize with everyone i meet, but "understanding" them to the best of my ability through this lens is optimal. similarly i can't put myself tangibly above others or claim to be the only "true" version of anything after realizing this but autonomous projections of myself definitely take on a whole new meaning with this in mind. mostly its a matter of who realized what first... (this also means i have no real "TRUE FORM". i lied. i mostly have just a "most optimal" form for whatever situation. every form i identify with is true.)
i'm getting less and less coherent as this goes on but remember: the perception that divides you from other people is a lie. we all have equal capacity for good and evil and everything else. the best way to make sure you don't turn into an awful self isolating person is to realize this truth. all of you should be as self absorbed as me honestly you're all so fascinating
look i'm not putting myself above anyone as a paragon of virtue or whatever. i can contradict myself and do shit i'm not so proud of. all i'm saying here is that this is a guideline i try my damnedest to adhere to even if it's kind of a bitch sometimes. this doesn't even take away my general distaste for the average "dirk strider kinnie" because most of them don't really know what the fuck they're talking about. obviously they're a part in this whole big sprawling web but to claim to be the one person on top of it all is just proudly being wrong. other dirks aren't immune to this either. i don't mind at all if you relate to the character (it's impressive to me at least) but if that's how you're gonna go about it then you're scaring me man.
"isn't this supposed to be about the aspect as a whole and not just you?"
that's the most fucked part, you can't even talk about heart without stumbling ass first into talking about yourself. that's not the worst thing in the world though obviously because CLEARLY it's kind of the point. if you were assigned this damn aspect you'd be talking about yourself all the time too...plus i think it's humanly possible to relate to what i've said here right? maybe reading this will be someone's breakthrough. i don't know, i can't tell the future.
"IN CONCLUSION...?"
i don't really have a conclusion to this whole thing honestly. hopefully this gives you an insight into my whole deal? heart is super abstract so it's hard to put into words. you gotta...dare i say...FEEL IT. are you feeling it? probably not. i'll probably update this as i have more thoughts later on...for now here's a grand total of 25% of how i interpret the heart aspect. (fellow aspect realizers i STRONGLY encourage you to talk to me about yours. i don't know how common this outlook is but enlighten me)
EVIL SECRET: so much of heart can be summed up with this (its not a rickroll but its sure to induce an emotion)